first thing monday morning...

...i'm gonna pack my tears away...
(let it flow - toni braxton)

aaaarrrrgggghhhh...
i feel so frustrated!
it's like pms, but more horrible!
i need to know what i should do!
i'm clueluess, helpless, hopeless... eventho as much as i wanna cry, i'm already tearless...

i wished i know what to do
i've asked in my prayers, please god, gimme a sign... which way i've to follow.
i'm in an intersection that confused me to death
i'm suffocating.

...

i've tried so hard to erase it from my heart...
i've been through so many failures in that case.
i decided to give up on that, but trying so fuckin'hard to erase it from my routine.
this time, i'm gonna start from my head instead of my heart.
my heart is much more stubborn than my head lately.

damn, the on-off
switch is broken again!!!

(starbucks melawai, minggu malem...)