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- ulang taun papakuw & andrewku
- 1 hr phone conversation that makes me know what path to follow

happy bday pa, ndru,
all my prayers will always go for your happiness and all the best in life :)

perempuan & pengharapan

si kalung pink:
i wonder, if my bday comes, would it be the tickets there???
(bali, minum bir di pinggir pantai yah... heheheh)

si kalung item:
aaa.... gw kangen sama sammy... tapi dia udah kayak gitu ke gw...
(sahabat gw ada di kost-annya dia??? wuaaa... aku ingin di sana juga... huhuhu...)

si jaket kuning:
surprise surprise, i'm here!
(lalu kita jalan2, nonton, mmm... makan es krim eh gelato aja)

si rambut merah:
plz... plz... meetingnya jam 2 aja!
(kalo bisa ga ada meeting, rbet ribet pilek nih!)

note 4 all my fullwithhope-girlfriendz...
sekali lagiii... mereka itu bukan dukun
(serem juga bukan punya laki yg bisa baca pikiran kita, hahahaha)
tell them.. tell them... compromise...
if that doesn't work, it's your call to live with or without them!

ozdreamland smalem

...di sms wicky, minta ijin pake postingan gw di milis stationpanutan...

"bunga di hati gw bandel banget, ga dipupukin, dijauhin dari matahari, boro-boro dikasih air, tetep aja berkembang dengan indahnya...
that's why gw terpaksa ngeracuninnya... supaya mati!"
(abis itu gw nangis darah ditemani five for fighting, dying...)

dear wicky & all my friends...
untungnya bunga itu emang bandel banget...
udah diracunin tetep aja berkembang dengan indahnya!
ternyata emang membutuhkan bunga yang bandel untuk lebih memahami ketetapan hati!

so gay ok

u wear that shirt till it's worn out and still do
change the channels 26 times in a quarter of hour
you scratch, you yawn and fall asleep
i watch you breathing peacefully

same diner, same order, little bit variation
joke i've heard many times about zebras crossin' town
crawling up with white sheet to scary me
you watch me laughing out loudly

the sun's shining so bright
the rain's falling so hard
any seasons; muggy or so dry
i must say it's so ok
coz i know, u'll be there when i cry
to make me smile and rest my head awhile...

(so ok - orange rocky necklace)

wonder if i could be like them...

dearest mama-papa-kuw,

sekarang saya sadar,

ga usah berpikir keras,

ga usah ke ujung dunia,

ga perlu susah2,

untuk mendapatkan alasan kenapa saya begitu berbahagia...

being as your daughter, it's a blessing that nothing could ever compare!

love u both, sooooo much!

.:happy 37th anniversary:.

suara di hari minggu

(maghrib @ selasar)

without no doubt, i must say, the place is just perfect!

"buhp, akustik di sini bagus banget deh. coba deh... dari toilet, lo bisa denger suara obrolan orang-orang di luar dengan jelas... bisa buat ngetest temen2 lo, lo diomongin apa di belakang sama mereka..."
(tapi tenang teman2, dari luar ga kedengeran kok kegiatan di dalam toilet, hehehe)

dengan gaya mr. punchlinenya, buhpy yg about to beranjak untuk melaksanakan ibadah shalat maghrib berkata,

"apalagi musholla-nya, bagus banget, di sana lo bisa denger suara hati looo..."

chubby chubby cuz cuz ;p

(sambil menambah persediaan lemak dengan caramel frappu)

mbak lelo:
gila ya... kemarenan gw ngobrol sama temen sd gw lewat telfon. nanya2 kabar, tiba2 dia bilang "gw skr chubby gituuu..." pas kopdar, booo... sok ngaku chubby, padahal cuma salah potong rambut doang yg bikin pipinya terlihat sedikit lebih besar!

ceu ntil:
cerita gw beda lagi! gw lagi browsing friendlist gw di frenster. terus ngeliat pic yg captionnya: so chubby me... padahal booo... dia ga ada gendut2nya..kebetulan orang yg di sebelahnya itu emang ceking banget.

jeng kal:
heheheh, temen kantor gw dong... pas lagi hunting baju di mall, she said, 5 years a go be4 i got married, dia pake jins nomer 27. skr nomer jinsnya 28, cuma naek senomer doang! dan dia dikit2 berkeluh kesah "susah ya cari baju buat cewek chubby kayak gw..."

(pembicaaan berhenti dan diakhiri dengan deep-sigh mbak lelo, ceu ntil dan jeng kal...
kalo mereka yang tidak gendut meng-klaim dirinya sebagai perempuan chubby, apa kabar dengan perempuan2 seperti kami yang memang menggunakan kosa kata lebih halus itu untuk mengilustrasikan kelebihan lemak everywhere di tubuh kami?)

chubby: pleasantly or charmingly plump, especially in the way that healthy babies and toddlers often are

if u could c u the way i c u...

dear my dearest friends...

it's gonna sound cliche,
but hey... life is about ups & downs...
mereka yang benar2 hidup, pasti ngerasain percampuradukan rasa.
bahagia, sakit hati, kecewa, berhasil, gagal, pengen mati, sampe akhirnya rasa-rasa itu makin bertambah...
mereka yang benar2 hidup akan merasa semakin sakit hati karena pernah merasa bahagia.
akan merasa lebih kecewa karena merasa pernah bisa.
akan lebih merasa lebih gagal karena pernah berhasil.
akan merasa lebih pengen mati karena merasa sudah hidup cukup.

tapi...

mereka yang benar2 hidup akan merasa makin bahagia setelah tersembuhkan sakit hatinya.
akan merasa lebih bisa setelah bisa berdamai dengan kekecewaan.
akan merasa lebih berhasil setelah tau bagaiman berhadapan dengan kegagalan.
akan benar-benar mensyukuri hidup, ketika menyadari, pengen mati adalah sia-sia...


embrace the day... luvy'all ;)

punya alasan banyak...

...untuk kesal!

1. bla bla bla
2. bli bli bli
3. na na na
4. ni ni ni

tapi banyak alasan juga untuk bahagia!

jadi menurut lo?

so yesterday!

yesterday factz!

1. not everybody got the story from your side, there r others got it from the other point of view.

2. it’s ok to be blamed on something. Everybody made mistake.

3. yes, i was devastated, but please notice the tense i use. it's past tense.

4. yes, i'm still well-informed. curious is my middle name.

5. yes, u handled me good, but i'm gonna get the best.

6. yes, i am happy now. it's not that i'm saying i wasn't.

7.( only) this time i'm happy with capital H.A.P.P.Y.

yes, we don't have to be friends...

jadul tapi seru...

1. recycle semua jadi satu by 3 diva (malyda tetep jawaranya!)
2. "ayeee..." (hahahahha... trinting edan!)
3. misyu - wet tissue (maksudnya: miss u - me too)

gapenting!

red wednesday

Je suis désolé /Lo siento /Ik ben droevig /Sono spiacente /Perdóname /Gomen nasai /Mujhe maph kardo /Przepraszam /Slicha /Forgive me/maaf yeee...

pagi2 udah memberikan warning 2 all ppl around me,
red alert! emosi memuncak!

mood swing...ME!

dear my dear friends...
maafkan hari ini saya sucha' pain in the az!
kurang berhasil mengontrol emosi,
gara2 panas dingin & my boobs r killin' me!

tapi our valentine's moment tetep menyenangkan kan?
ahahahha...

*marain imam pas siaran (pdhal kt mecing bgt, 2 babi *babe&piglet* siaran)
*nyulein smua orang
*merasa terintimidasi sama lagu a love that will last (never use that again for the back sound of my show! plz!!!)

-happy yeah valentine's day, y'all-

broken-heart day (as ozradio tradition, rite!)

all i want to do is please you/please myself by living my life too...
and all the stupid things i do /have absolutely no reflection on /how i feel about you/how i feel /all the stupid things i do /have absolutely no reflection on /how i feel about you/how i feel about you/yeah...
(the stupid things-jesse mccartney)

edan! jatuh cinta berat sama lagu ini (yg versi jesse, but tq thicke 4 making sucha' kewl song!)

happy broken-heart day ;)
find out how long will it take to mend your broken-heart here:
heart repair calculator
happy mending yours, galz ;)

copyright di hari sabtu!

now i know
where to go, what to do,
now i know
the reason i'm alive
since i've got u...
(since i've got u - moi)

huahauhaua...
seneng!
sekarang gw makin tau...

kisah romantis

3 sd, baru kenal kata romantis

saya: oma... pernah diromantisin apa sama opa?
oma: (ditrenslet ke bahasa jaman skr) hahaha.. boro2 romantis, jaman oma kawin sama opa kamu, lagi jaman perang. kerjanya ngumpet dari satu hutan ke hutan lain. ini kok anak kecil nanya romantis-romantis segala?

5 sd, suka sama cowok

saya: mom, dulu waktu pacaran sama poppa, romantis ga?
momma: poppa kamu tuh gak ada romantis2nya, paling banter pacaran ngajak minum soda gembira...

1 smp, pengen pacaran

saya: oma, aku lagi suka sama cowok, orangnya cakep, tapi cuek banget... drummer gitu... sukanya lagu metal!
oma: pantesan baju kamu item semua, celana robek-robek...
saya: kan biar mecing, oma...
(menurut saya, mecing dengan gebetan itu romantis)

1 sma, mulai pacaran (sok) serius

saya: mom, ada vas bunga nganggur ga? (dengan pipi bersemu merah, menyembunyikan sesuatu di balik badan)
momma: ada... (pandangan menyelidik) apaan tuh?
saya: (smakin bersemu) dapet bunga...
(menurut saya, that moment was the most romantiiic in my life)

kuliah, kerja sampai 2 hari yang lalu...

romantis: bunga mawar putih dan pink, candle-lite dinner, mandangin langit malam penuh bintang, gandengan tangan di tempat indah (can't mention the places, hehehe), dipayungin pake tangannya pas ujan, dapet sms dengan kata2 manis, dikasih lagu, dll... sampai berharap ada hujan warna-warni yang kata orang ga mungkin!

kemaren, di kamar tidur momma&poppa

my poppa lagi tidur2an sambil nonton tv, setelah capek seharian ke bandung nyetir sendiri bolak-balik. my momma lagi asik main komputer. ujug2 saya numpang ke kamar mandi mereka karna my never-ending peepee. pas saya keluar, poppa lagi menelungkup, matanya mengarah ke momma, membantu momma melihat balon-balon warna-warni untuk dirangkai di monitor komputer. akhirnya waktu habis dan semua balon meledak... my momma ga bisa mencetak hi-score. mukanya agak kecewa... my poppa bangun dan berdiri di belakang momma yg memulai permainannya lagi. sambil memijit pundak momma, poppa menjadi mata ketiga dan keempat untuk momma...

saya melenggang ke luar kamar mereka. pemandangan beda tapi menimbulkan perasaan sama ketika dulu, saat opa kambuh rematiknya, oma menjadi kaki opa, memapah dan menuju ke arah mana opa tidak bisa berada...

seketika, romantis jadi beda arti...

the 4th wednesday afternoon

been thinking of the reason...
smakin dipikir, smakin aneh...
ga bisa dipikir, logika yg mau ikutan dijadiin alasan jadi terlalu banyak.

tapi yg bikin gw yakin, adalah ketika ada/banyak/ga ada sama sekali pilihan di sekitar gw, hati gw tetep milih dia...

be careful of what u wished 4

somewhere over the rainbow way up high,
there's a land that I heard of once in a lullaby.
somewhere over the rainbow skies are blue,
and the dreams that you dare to dream really do come true.
someday i'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
where troubles melt like lemon drops away above the chimney tops
that's where you'll find me.
somewhere over the rainbow bluebirds fly.
birds fly over the rainbow.
why then, oh why can't i?
if happy little bluebirds fly
beyond the rainbow
why, oh why can't i?

...tang tung tang tung... nanggung!

rabu biru

gak baju, gak langit pagi jakarta, gak hati ini, hampir sama biru
terlalu banyak kegiatan di hari lalu
baru tidur lewat dari jam satu
tadi harus bangun jam lima lewat tujuh
... *emosi gak menentu* ...
salah gw gitu kalo gw lagi ga mau tau?
gw ga pengen berlagak mau, apalagi bertindak palsu

gw capek, tau!

huhuhu... i miz my bubu :(

quote of the day

from mbak noni yg abis nonton brokeback mountain

... i don't know how 2 quit u...

(i kinda lose my writing-passion...
need my galaunez but don't wanna feel the pain anymore...)

so wonderful...

"Don't you know, little fool, you never can win?
Use your mentality - wake up to reality."
But each time I do, just the thought of you
Makes me stop before I begin -
'Cause I've got you under my skin,
I've got you under my skin.
( frank sinatra - i've got u under my skin - 1956)

what could i ask for more?
the time, the place, the feeling, all so right!
dear the up above, tq 4 ur never-ending blessings...
...hope it'll last forever ;)...
(amin...)

belum bisa nulis... ga jelas apa yg mau ditulis...

echo

sore-sore, suara abis, jakarta ujan...
...
baaam! candra played a song that i fear to sing
but i just loooove the song...
out of a sudden, my husky voice echoing through out my tiny-spacey room...

my biggest fear will be the rescue of me
strange how it turns out that way, yeah
could you show me dear?
something I've not seen.
something infinitely interesting
could you show me dear?
something I've not seen.
something infinitely interesting
(echo - incubus)

i feel no fear. it just feels right.

me-lately

if i fell in love with u
would u promise to be true
and help me to understand
coz i've been in love before
and i found that love was more
than just holdin' hand...

(if i fell - the beatles)

it's been two week since my red book changed its chapter (thank god i don’t have to change the book in order to get a new story ;p)
haven't written a lot. not that i'm trapped in doubts.
it's just for this time, i want to write the new chapter with my feeling, based on reality.
this new chapter should be my masterpiece in my learning session of life.
not only an ordinary trial error & the ntl (nothing to lose) piece like i used to have.
i've done my trial, i've evaluated my error, i won’t tolerate ntl.

i’m ready to be a better me!

ps. pleh pleh pleh… just bought 6 pairs of vnc! 600 for 6! gee…thx 2 Uzone, hehehe…

happy february y'all...